7 Years Life Experinces

wow.. this blog, I almost forget you!
Never get a chance to write my life story in here.
So, i can tell my life was different like my latest post, i was 7 years younger than now :))

I got married and had 1 awesome son, be blassed and grateful for all of that.
Life is challenging when you heading with all troubles and you must face it by yourself.
Parenting is one of a challenging moment that I need to learn more to raise my kid to be a better person until they get own family too. It's not easy being patient person and until you learn how to handle your emotion and ego.. wow.. I almost put my white flag there :( But, something you need to pray to vent all problems to God and God always help and grant all prayers. Never doubt that.

and and.. next month is my son bday and he's 3 yo soon !!
Nah.. time fly so fast huh? and nope, I'm not getting old x)

Then, yeah i still need to develop myself to be employed and paid for sure.
Earn money as much as I can,but... Hey, that's my husband duty tho!!
Yeah, I need money to reaching out my dream to be....................
I dont know what i want to be. An enterprenuer for sure!
I like cooking but also I like make up, and I hope I can reach all my dream together, someday x)

Anyway, I got many friends and best friends from my previous work place before. There's a love and hate relationship i had, knowing many character people out there that you've never had before.
Wow.. I faced with two faces-ppl to fulfill their desire to defeat each other, take our boss's attention. it's competition not a team work.. yeah I know that well.
Fortunately, my friend who sitting next to me.. she can be my BF for my almost 5 years worked there.
We share anything, jokes, stories, have a same interest with some other things, we love to eat and try many foods out there (near from our office actually lol) and doing sport together.
She is my sister from another mother <3 p="">
and now, i got a chance in a new work place and we separated.
My life changing and i have to survive it without any BF here.
But, my work now more better than previous, i can tell. I need to grateful for all of this.

Okay, I think its enough to conclude my 7 years story past ago, so far.
Hope I can share a new things again soon.

Cherio,

Long Time No Type

Hooaahh.. it's been TWO years this blog was silent for a long time :-(

I'm not trying to forget you, blog .. but i'm too quite busy for seeing this world changing every second, and me.. im not transform become a bad person (fortunately).

I met some new people in a new place. People who have a unique ethic, personal, skills, jokes, and face. I love it :-)

Someday i will share about that people in different post. Hope someday will come soon.


Cherio,

L'q

artwork by Dito "I LOVE MEDUSA"

artwork "PIANIST"

artwork "DON'T BE SAD, CLOWN"

artwork "BRING ME ALONG"

artwork "REYNANTO"

i LOVE 3 things : the sun, the moon and YOU. The sun for the day, the moon for the night and YOU for-ever ♥

yes YOU !

"JUST THE WAY YOU ARE" is the best Gombalism Ever :D

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

connected to YOU

LAND CRUISER - Green Lime

Friendship is not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything.

Happiness or Sadness, we've been through together

"Jadilah dirimu sendiri, keikhlasan adalah kunci. Belajar ikhlas amat sangat sulit, kalau udah bisa ikhlas itu amat baik," - R.I.P Mama Lauren

Sederhana Tapi Mengejutkan!

Yes, I'm 23 years old now.

Mengutip kalimat dari blognya Raditya Dika "Badan ini dipinjamkan. Setiap tarikan napas, adalah satu tarikan napas lagi mendekati kematian. Kita harus ngebuat lebih banyak karya, lebih banyak menikmati hidup, lebih banyak mengambil kesempatan. Hidup ini cuman sekali. Akan sangat sayang untuk kita buang begitu aja. I have to enjoy life."

Setelah saya baca kalimat diatas ini, otak saya berputar lebih keras dari sebelumnya dan berfikir, saya bertemu dengan tanggal 4 May dan mempercepat pula pertemuan saya dengan kematian. Well, agak takut juga ngomongin tentang kematian ya secara hidup ini belum ada apa-apanya yang bisa dibanggain, bisa diinget orang nanti setelah kita pergi nanti. Dan benar juga kata si penulis itu: kita atau lebih tepatnya lagi saya selalu berfikir dari dulu saya masih muda dan gak akan mungkin kenapa-kenapa sekarang. Saya akan mati karena tua! Hey, wake up.. we never know what will happen tomorrow, or maybe in one hour later.

Ini bener-bener tonjokan keras
tonjokan ke kepala saya!

Oke, kamu makin tua sekarang. Apa yang akan kamu lakukan sekarang? duduk diam saja? bermalas-malasan? hanya berfikir dan berfikir saja?

Hah, saatnya saya introspeksi diri lagi and ACTION!

Anyway, setelah ngemeng-ngemeng tentang Mati saya mau cerita tentang Hari Ulang Tahun saya yang tahun ini berasa sangat sederhana. Dan sepertinya setiap saya ulang tahun memang sederhana saja hanya mungkin temen-temen yang care sama saya yang bersedia ngeluangin waktu dan uangnya untuk membeli telor dan tepung (unsur penting) sebagai tanda sayang mereka kepada saya, waktu sekolah dulu.

Dan sekarang saya bukan anak sekolahan lagi yang sangat labil, tapi saya nggak akan deny kalo saya mau seperti itu lagi.

Untuk tahun ini, hanya ada satu cake blackforest untuk dibagikan dan dimakan bersama-sama dikantor dan tidak lupa acara tiup lilinnya, dan ucapan yang sangat banyak sekali (thanks friends) kata "Happy Birthday, wish u all the best" di social networking facebook & twitter tentunya. Tapi ternyata yang saya kira hanya akan sesederhana itu salah.

Jam 9 saya sudah tidur dan tiba-tiba saja pintu dan kaca kamar digedor keras sekali, sumpah rasanya pengen saya timpuk pake buku mukanya yang gedor pintu kamar! Tapi ga sempet ambil buku, pintu saya buka dan ternyata Wilda, Tria, Yoan, Yurike dan Femmy adalah pelakunya yang meneriakkan kata "SURPRISE!!" dan kue putih kecil dengan lilin ditangan mereka. Dengan kucek-kucek mata, muka beler, badan dan pikiran belum jadi satu, dan tentu saja terkejut! Saya senang karena ada mereka dan pacar saya yang menjadi penutup di tanggal 4 May 2010 :)

















Birthday Cake Rasa Lilin!


















Mereka yang hampir saja saya timpuk pake buku :p


Sederhananya, saya ga terima kado satu pun dari siapa pun. Ironis memang.

Karena tanggal 4 May jatoh dihari kerja dan pacar saya menjanjikan untuk mengajak jalan-jalan dari pagi hingga malam. Pagi hari ternyata saya dapet bad news si pacar harus pergi sama keluarganya dulu. Well, tweet saya untuk saat itu : "Ujung-ujungnya gatot! Makanya gw males kalo ngebuat rencana dari jauh2 hari -______-"

Jam 4 sore akhirnya dapet kabar juga dari pacar dan saya langsung siap-siap. Tujuan pertama yaitu Plaza Semanggi. Eh bentar, di mobil saya tanya: " kita mau kemana nih sekarang ay?", pacar: "hmm.. aku hari ini ada voucher buat kamu ay. Kamu bilang waktu itu mau beli baju kan di Pelangi. Yuk kita cari", saya: "hee.. voucher apa tuh? beneran ayank mau beliin aku baju kuning itu? asiiiikk (mata bersinar-sinar) !"

Ngeeenngg.. langsung tancap gas kesana!

Tiba di Pelangi, kita langsung menuju tempat dimana saya mau beli dress kuning itu tapi ternyata sudah ga ada! Mood saya langsung drop sedrop-dropnya.. Si pacar memang baik sekali, dia tetep ngasih options buat saya. Mondar-mandir sana sini, kata pacar: "baju ini bagus ay!" dan saya jawab: "Nggak! Jelek!". Memang sih selera pacar saya agak-agak gimanaaa gitu.hahaha..

Dari sepatu dengan banyak options dari pacar tapi tetep ajah nggak ada yang nyantol dihati. Akhirnya kita ke toko yang sudah berkali-kali kita lewati, pacar liat baju warna biru. "Ay kamu cobain yang ini deh?", saya: "hmm.. oke". Dan woow, ternyata memang bagus bajunya pas dipake dan dia pun senang.

Dapet satu baju dan vouchernya masih ada sisa. Bytheway, ini kado ulangtaun saya ternyata dari dia. Alhamdulillah, akhirnya dapet kado juga :)

Kita cabut dari Pelangi lalu menuju ke suatu tempat yang kita sendiri juga ga tau kemana. Intinya permintaan saya saat itu nggak mau ketempat yang udah pernah kita kunjungi. Dan pacarpun memutar otaknya lebih keras. Muter dari daerah Blok M, Panglima Polim sampe ke Cipete ga dapet tempat yang mau disinggahi.

Saya mulai bosen, pacar mulai bosen.

Akhirnya ditengah jalan kita ngelewatin banyak toko karangan bunga. Pacar tiba-tiba bilang: "Ayank mau bunga ga?", saya jawab: "Mauu! Lily ay Lily!". Oke, kita turun dari mobil. Dan Oops, pacarku kepleset dan hampir aja jatoh :(

Di toko bunga pun saya mulai mencari si bunga lily dan ternyata ada dan saya pun berseri kegirangan! Terjadi pernawaran harga antara saya dan si abang penjual. Akhirnya saya dapet dua bunga lily dan satu bunga mawar putih (Mereka favorite saya :) ) dengan 40 ribu saja. Hmm, saya ga tau itu murah atau mahal yang penting dibeliin judulnya. hehehe.. Makasih pacarku, biar kata kamu, kamu itu ga romantis tapi bagi aku sebagai perempuan itu suatu hal yang So Sweet buat aku. Secara selama TUJUH TAUN saya berpacaran dengan dia, baru DUA KALI saya dapet bunga tapi disaat yang sama, saat ulang tahun.


















My Lilys and Rose


Well, tahun ini bener-bener ulang tahun saya yang sederhana tapi biar begitu ada saja hal yang mengejutkan dari orang-orang terdekat saya.

I LOVE U My Best Friends
I LOVE U My Boy Friend


Regards,
DEIZKI :)

I believe God always has the keys for my questions
This is my destiny being a lover and to be loved
He came to me, sent by YOU, God
He gives me happiness and it used to be
I know it won't last forever
Being eternal is only yours, God
But i always pray and pray
hope and hopelessness
Please God, Please make this story be eternal in our hearts
I feel grateful, thankful for what you give to me
i love him
and
i care 'bout him





CumzChill

***

Hormat, Master Oogway

"Yesterday is History, Tomorrow is Mistery but Today is a Give. That's why it called PRESENT"

-Master Oogway-

C H I L D H O O D

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...

No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...


People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the ChildhoodI've never known...


Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates and adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...


Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?
People say I'm strange that way


'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
For the Childhood I've never known...


Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...


Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had
Have you seen my Childhood....

Who am I ?

I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'Who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!




Alice's quote

Alice in Wonderland - Mad Tea Party Conversation

There was a table set out under a tree in front of the house, and the March Hare and the Hatter were having tea at it: a Dormouse was sitting between them, fast asleep, and the other two were using it as a cushion, resting their elbows on it, and talking over its head. `Very uncomfortable for the Dormouse,' thought Alice; `only, as it's asleep, I suppose it doesn't mind.'

The table was a large one, but the three were all crowded together at one corner of it: `No room! No room!' they cried out when they saw Alice coming. `There's plenty of room!' said Alice indignantly, and she sat down in a large arm-chair at one end of the table.

Mad Tea Party

`Have some wine,' the March Hare said in an encouraging tone.

Alice looked all round the table, but there was nothing on it but tea. `I don't see any wine,' she remarked.

`There isn't any,' said the March Hare.

`Then it wasn't very civil of you to offer it,' said Alice angrily.

`It wasn't very civil of you to sit down without being invited,' said the March Hare.

`I didn't know it was your table,' said Alice; `it's laid for a great many more than three.'

`Your hair wants cutting,' said the Hatter. He had been looking at Alice for some time with great curiosity, and this was his first speech.

`You should learn not to make personal remarks,' Alice said with some severity; `it's very rude.'

The Hatter opened his eyes very wide on hearing this; but all he said was, `Why is a raven like a writing-desk?'

`Come, we shall have some fun now!' thought Alice. `I'm glad they've begun asking riddles.--I believe I can guess that,' she added aloud.

`Do you mean that you think you can find out the answer to it?' said the March Hare.

`Exactly so,' said Alice.

`Then you should say what you mean,' the March Hare went on.

`I do,' Alice hastily replied; `at least--at least I mean what I say--that's the same thing, you know.'

`Not the same thing a bit!' said the Hatter. `You might just as well say that "I see what I eat" is the same thing as "I eat what I see"!'

Hatter engaging in rhetoric

`You might just as well say,' added the March Hare, `that "I like what I get" is the same thing as "I get what I like"!'

`You might just as well say,' added the Dormouse, who seemed to be talking in his sleep, `that "I breathe when I sleep" is the same thing as "I sleep when I breathe"!'

`It is the same thing with you,' said the Hatter, and here the conversation dropped, and the party sat silent for a minute, while Alice thought over all she could remember about ravens and writing-desks, which wasn't much.

The Hatter was the first to break the silence. `What day of the month is it?' he said, turning to Alice: he had taken his watch out of his pocket, and was looking at it uneasily, shaking it every now and then, and holding it to his ear.

Alice considered a little, and then said `The fourth.'

`Two days wrong!' sighed the Hatter. `I told you butter wouldn't suit the works!' he added looking angrily at the March Hare.

`It was the best butter,' the March Hare meekly replied.

`Yes, but some crumbs must have got in as well,' the Hatter grumbled: `you shouldn't have put it in with the bread-knife.'

The March Hare took the watch and looked at it gloomily: then he dipped it into his cup of tea, and looked at it again: but he could think of nothing better to say than his first remark, `It was the best butter, you know.'

Alice had been looking over his shoulder with some curiosity. `What a funny watch!' she remarked. `It tells the day of the month, and doesn't tell what o'clock it is!'

`Why should it?' muttered the Hatter. `Does your watch tell you what year it is?'

`Of course not,' Alice replied very readily: `but that's because it stays the same year for such a long time together.'

`Which is just the case with mine,' said the Hatter.

Alice felt dreadfully puzzled. The Hatter's remark seemed to have no sort of meaning in it, and yet it was certainly English. `I don't quite understand you,' she said, as politely as she could.

`The Dormouse is asleep again,' said the Hatter, and he poured a little hot tea upon its nose.

The Dormouse shook its head impatiently, and said, without opening its eyes, `Of course, of course; just what I was going to remark myself.'

`Have you guessed the riddle yet?' the Hatter said, turning to Alice again.

`No, I give it up,' Alice replied: `what's the answer?'

`I haven't the slightest idea,' said the Hatter.

`Nor I,' said the March Hare.

Alice sighed wearily. `I think you might do something better with the time,' she said, `than waste it in asking riddles that have no answers.'

`If you knew Time as well as I do,' said the Hatter, `you wouldn't talk about wasting it. It's him.'

`I don't know what you mean,' said Alice.

`Of course you don't!' the Hatter said, tossing his head contemptuously. `I dare say you never even spoke to Time!'

`Perhaps not,' Alice cautiously replied: `but I know I have to beat time when I learn music.'

`Ah! that accounts for it,' said the Hatter. `He won't stand beating. Now, if you only kept on good terms with him, he'd do almost anything you liked with the clock. For instance, suppose it were nine o'clock in the morning, just time to begin lessons: you'd only have to whisper a hint to Time, and round goes the clock in a twinkling! Half-past one, time for dinner!'

(`I only wish it was,' the March Hare said to itself in a whisper.)

`That would be grand, certainly,' said Alice thoughtfully: `but then--I shouldn't be hungry for it, you know.'

`Not at first, perhaps,' said the Hatter: `but you could keep it to half-past one as long as you liked.'

`Is that the way you manage?' Alice asked.

The Hatter shook his head mournfully. `Not I!' he replied. `We quarrelled last March--just before he went mad, you know--' (pointing with his tea spoon at the March Hare,) `--it was at the great concert given by the Queen of Hearts, and I had to sing

            "Twinkle, twinkle, little bat!
            How I wonder what you're at!"

You know the song, perhaps?'

`I've heard something like it,' said Alice.

`It goes on, you know,' the Hatter continued, `in this way:--

            "Up above the world you fly,
            Like a tea-tray in the sky.
                    Twinkle, twinkle--"'

Here the Dormouse shook itself, and began singing in its sleep `Twinkle, twinkle, twinkle, twinkle--' and went on so long that they had to pinch it to make it stop.

`Well, I'd hardly finished the first verse,' said the Hatter, `when the Queen jumped up and bawled out, "He's murdering the time! Off with his head!"'

`How dreadfully savage!' exclaimed Alice.

`And ever since that,' the Hatter went on in a mournful tone, `he won't do a thing I ask! It's always six o'clock now.'

A bright idea came into Alice's head. `Is that the reason so many tea-things are put out here?' she asked.

`Yes, that's it,' said the Hatter with a sigh: `it's always tea-time, and we've no time to wash the things between whiles.'

`Then you keep moving round, I suppose?' said Alice.

`Exactly so,' said the Hatter: `as the things get used up.'

`But what happens when you come to the beginning again?' Alice ventured to ask.

`Suppose we change the subject,' the March Hare interrupted, yawning. `I'm getting tired of this. I vote the young lady tells us a story.'

`I'm afraid I don't know one,' said Alice, rather alarmed at the proposal.

`Then the Dormouse shall!' they both cried. `Wake up, Dormouse!' And they pinched it on both sides at once.

The Dormouse slowly opened his eyes. `I wasn't asleep,' he said in a hoarse, feeble voice: `I heard every word you fellows were saying.'

`Tell us a story!' said the March Hare.

`Yes, please do!' pleaded Alice.

`And be quick about it,' added the Hatter, `or you'll be asleep again before it's done.'

`Once upon a time there were three little sisters,' the Dormouse began in a great hurry; `and their names were Elsie, Lacie, and Tillie; and they lived at the bottom of a well--'

`What did they live on?' said Alice, who always took a great interest in questions of eating and drinking.

`They lived on treacle,' said the Dormouse, after thinking a minute or two.

`They couldn't have done that, you know,' Alice gently remarked; `they'd have been ill.'

`So they were,' said the Dormouse; `very ill.'

Alice tried to fancy to herself what such an extraordinary ways of living would be like, but it puzzled her too much, so she went on: `But why did they live at the bottom of a well?'

`Take some more tea,' the March Hare said to Alice, very earnestly.

`I've had nothing yet,' Alice replied in an offended tone, `so I can't take more.'

`You mean you can't take less,' said the Hatter: `it's very easy to take more than nothing.'

`Nobody asked your opinion,' said Alice.

`Who's making personal remarks now?' the Hatter asked triumphantly.

Alice did not quite know what to say to this: so she helped herself to some tea and bread-and-butter, and then turned to the Dormouse, and repeated her question. `Why did they live at the bottom of a well?'

The Dormouse again took a minute or two to think about it, and then said, `It was a treacle-well.'

`There's no such thing!' Alice was beginning very angrily, but the Hatter and the March Hare went `Sh! sh!' and the Dormouse sulkily remarked, `If you can't be civil, you'd better finish the story for yourself.'

`No, please go on!' Alice said very humbly; `I won't interrupt again. I dare say there may be one.'

`One, indeed!' said the Dormouse indignantly. However, he consented to go on. `And so these three little sisters--they were learning to draw, you know--'

`What did they draw?' said Alice, quite forgetting her promise.

`Treacle,' said the Dormouse, without considering at all this time.

`I want a clean cup,' interrupted the Hatter: `let's all move one place on.'

He moved on as he spoke, and the Dormouse followed him: the March Hare moved into the Dormouse's place, and Alice rather unwillingly took the place of the March Hare. The Hatter was the only one who got any advantage from the change: and Alice was a good deal worse off than before, as the March Hare had just upset the milk-jug into his plate.

Alice did not wish to offend the Dormouse again, so she began very cautiously: `But I don't understand. Where did they draw the treacle from?'

`You can draw water out of a water-well,' said the Hatter; `so I should think you could draw treacle out of a treacle-well--eh, stupid?'

`But they were in the well,' Alice said to the Dormouse, not choosing to notice this last remark.

`Of course they were', said the Dormouse; `--well in.'

This answer so confused poor Alice, that she let the Dormouse go on for some time without interrupting it.

`They were learning to draw,' the Dormouse went on, yawning and rubbing its eyes, for it was getting very sleepy; `and they drew all manner of things--everything that begins with an M--'

`Why with an M?' said Alice.

`Why not?' said the March Hare.

Alice was silent.

The Dormouse had closed its eyes by this time, and was going off into a doze; but, on being pinched by the Hatter, it woke up again with a little shriek, and went on: `--that begins with an M, such as mouse-traps, and the moon, and memory, and muchness-- you know you say things are "much of a muchness"--did you ever see such a thing as a drawing of a muchness?'

`Really, now you ask me,' said Alice, very much confused, `I don't think--'

`Then you shouldn't talk,' said the Hatter.

This piece of rudeness was more than Alice could bear: she got up in great disgust, and walked off; the Dormouse fell asleep instantly, and neither of the others took the least notice of her going, though she looked back once or twice, half hoping that they would call after her: the last time she saw them, they were trying to put the Dormouse into the teapot.

Hatter and Hare dunking Dormouse

`At any rate I'll never go there again!' said Alice as she picked her way through the wood. `It's the stupidest tea-party I ever was at in all my life!'

Just as she said this, she noticed that one of the trees had a door leading right into it. `That's very curious!' she thought. `But everything's curious today. I think I may as well go in at once.' And in she went.

Once more she found herself in the long hall, and close to the little glass table. `Now, I'll manage better this time,' she said to herself, and began by taking the little golden key, and unlocking the door that led into the garden. Then she went to work nibbling at the mushroom (she had kept a piece of it in her pocket) till she was about a foot high: then she walked down the little passage: and then--she found herself at last in the beautiful garden, among the bright flower-beds and the cool fountains.

F A K E

Senangnya Dulu Saat Bersamamu
Setiap Waktu Terasa Indah Bagiku
Saat Kau Memelukku
ku Makin Jatuh Cinta
Takkan ku Lupa Rayuan Cintamu

Bahagia Yang ku Rasa Hanya Sementara
ku Terbuai Cintamu

Dulu Kau Bilang Sayang Padaku
dan Dulu Kau Bilang Ya Cuma Aku
Selalu Kau Bilang Kau Rindu Aku
Tapi Ternyata
Ternyata Semua itu Palsu

Dulu Kau Bilang Kau Sayang Padaku
dan Dulu Kau Bilang Ya Cuma Ada Aku
Selalu Kau Bilang Kau Rindukan Aku

Tapi Ternyata Semuanya itu Palsu